or at least some type of counselor

it just feels like my life is a big ball of shit sometimes
i'm starting to get suicidal thoughts
i rarely feel like going to movies and whatnot with my friends these days
and i feel like im slowly developing a low self esteem

dont get me wrong, i dont act miserable all day. i can still laugh and all but the sad memories just dont seem to go away and it's bothering me


so how do i tell my parents that i think i need help?
i'm only 15 by the way