Ok i know i need help, i'm still depressed after my mothers death 8months ago and my bf is tryin his best to help me through it but ontop of that i'm other problems, i can't sleep, i'm always stressed and worried about things like losing J or my dad or if anything goes slightly wrong i freak out, other people are always commenting on the fact ive lost weight cos i don't eat much anymore (I'M NOT ANOREXIC SO PLEASE DON'T EVEN SAY IT) and J says he's worried that i don't eat much.
On top of that i keep feeling out of breath like someone is squeezing my lungs. I know its prob a panicattack but these feel different.

I feel like i'm losing it but i really don't want to bother my dad, J, my tutor or my friends at college with my screwed up problems and i don't want counselling cos i already did that