Death? I do. It's not that I hate life or anything like that. I would never consider suicide because it's weak and I feel like I must just take the pain and suck it all up.
But somehow like the idea of death. I think it must feel wonderful, all the pain fading away, all the worries gone - just release.
Does anyone else feel this way?

My ultimate dream/fantasy is dying to protect someone I love insanely much.