I'm soo happy I made it to 16 years of life, the 14 years I spent happy and the other two I just been in I spent depressed and on the breaking point where I can committ suicide at any moment but I know that would hurt the people that love me so I try to hang in there in hope for some life-saver.
I fear death so damn much...I wonder if I will be just dead or will I still be able to dream...or maybe live a new life.
I don't want to come off as "crazy" or "wired" but my whole life just went down hill...I know I'm not the worst but I hate me.
I have lots of friends and people who care about me...crap, I even tried to get help a few times.
I been bullied befor and they took my pride and self esteem away and now I'm trying to get it back but to feels like once it's gone it's gone.
OMG, I really do know what they mean when they said "Teenage years are the hardest times in your life, you may not make it threw"
I do not believe in hope..but maybe it just has not come to me yet
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