i think i might be depressed. im going to see a doctor but i'd like to get a second opinion on it, too.
i can't remember the last time i felt happy and carefree. it was probably when i was hanging out with a friend, and that rarely happens. i hardly ever hang out with anyone. oh believe me, i try, but it just feels like noone wants to.

i'll feel worthless..like why am i even on this earth? why am i so special? there is nothing to live for right now. (but i've never had suicidal thoughts). i feel lonely, tired, dull, and im extremely aggitated and annoyed at everyone, even if they dont deserve it. i have trouble staying awake and concentrating in some of my classes..i just feel trapped inside my own body. it feels like i'll never be happy again and my life wont get better and i'll be alone forever, because i only have one really good friend. and the fact that i'm so argumentative and usually in a bad mood is starting to drive him away. i try hard to be happy, but i just cant help it.