ok, this sounds really weird, but can anyone understand this? like, when you are going about your business or whatever, and you just have this negative feeling about yourself, like you hate yourself; not focused on anything in particular, but just a general, all-round kind of loathing. and kind of feeling numb, like internally, and really tired and heavy, and just like you've stopped caring about everything and everything is a waste of time and why bother doing anything and why bother living, and even if you are trying to do something else, eg sort out your room or homework, this feeling wont leave you alone even if you dont concentrate on it...and you just feel like dropping down and dying; not even throwing yourself off a cliff or something, just collapsing on the ground and sinking into death like you're meant to do when you drown...like falling asleep and never waking up and everything being all peaceful and theres nothing to worry about and just enjoying the sense of freedom...
thanks x
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