I'm fairly sure I have depression and I'm not aloud to go to therapy or talk to anyone. My father drinks and is verbally abusive...and my mother used to be physically and verbally abusive but now it's just verbal. I don't have anything to say...even when I'm with my best friends...I just have nothing to say. I have a lot of trouble falling asleep at night. I been dancing since I was three but I just don't want to do it anymore. There's also been a change in my appetite...I used to be healthy and watch what I eat but now I just eat junk. I also feel tired. I've cut myself....thought about suicide. I don't like life...I don't really believe in happiness or love.
I know I messed up and need help.

School counselor is not an option...I'm only 15 and would need parental consent which I can't get. I also live in small town and don't want ppl to know what I'm going through.....I've only told some things to maybe 3 ppl.