When I was in the eighth grade my friends and I would rip on each other all the time about stuff. And sometimes we would make fun of each other for being gay. It got me thinking. What if I was gay? So I started to test myself. Every time I had an erection from being aroused I would see if i was gay by thinking about gay sex. I lose my erection every time and never get aroused by thinking about it. This has been my life for almost three years. I have never been aroused by other men but I am always afraid. Not one day goes by when I don't test myself. Some days I barely think about it and other days It's all I think about. If I was gay I would be gay. I know I'm not but why do I still obsess over it every day? Should I see a professional? Is anyone else out there like me? Please help me.