For the first time in my life I have been able to live in and enjoy my own home. I am also lucky that I can earn a very small wage from home that keeps me going. I don't have kids but have a working partner and so spend a lot of my time reading, writing, gardening etc. For 22 years I had a corporate job with deadlines that nearly drove me crazy and had to leave as my health was suffering. I try to take it easy now and really enjoy my own company and solitude. I find most people very demanding as I can be entertaining and a good hostess, but only when i choose. The problem is that people think i should be out everyday and not at home. They try to get me to come to lunches and to earn extra pocket money on little jobs, but I really at the moment am not motivated. I don't need the money and I find people can be a real drain. But am I being lazy or satisfied? I feel really guilty for not going out, but all I want to do these days is hang at home - I am sick of going out!