I am a single mom who has made many mistakes and trusted many wrong people, I feel and know I am a good person. I have always been a solitary person, I love the company of others but have little desire to really be the hipster all the same type person.I date the wrong men and when i find the nice ones I mess it up.. same with friends. I blame small town, jealousy yada yada, but what if it is just me?

How do i know? how do I change? I have a four year old , ok job but not making enough money and just an all around confusing life. Will I ever be able to be happy? I am happy but actually happy without having to wait for the inevitable other foot to drop and all to be scattered again? My heart is so heavy. I want so badly to be a person that has an easy life, confident, pleasant and loved. Seems all people want from me is what they can take. And vice versa...