Honesty

For being gay I am suffering anxiety but one part of me cannot accept this fact why is that?
well I live in a small town in mexico.. I am wondered why is it so hard to be gay? I have seen gays who are effeminate and I think they are very cool with it. but I have never seen a gay who looks straight or act very masculine but I always wanted to know someone like that.. I am not sure but I am not into them..I know many people here are anti-gay.. they try to avoid them and you know they called us f.a.g and really hurts me and specially when my mom refers to talk about the topic but not directly to me.. even she knows about that.. I have been taking medications for anxiety like venfaxaline or efexor 150mg.. now my psiquiatric told me that's all I should leave this medication... it's horrible to care what do people think about this topic..specially I am alone on this.. I don't know other gays or Bis. sorry for my bad english but I am learning and I can understand everything in english but my grammar is bad

bukroot

its probably because everyone knows eachother and u feel like family with many people. there is no anonymity and everything u do gets heard of quickly.

dont feel alone in this. you are not. it might be hard when u know people around u dont accept homosexuals but u shouldnt care what they think. think of it this way: if they knew what would change in ur life? would they not let u into bars? would they stop talking to u? whatever it is, it cant be that bad. plus, when the people who REALLY love you realise that u havent changed but u are the same charming person u have always been they will love u again.

please dont take medication. those things are addictive and can hurt u in the long run more than they help u in the short run. u can meet other bis and gays in ur area via the internet. thats the beauty of it!

bukroot

its probably because everyone knows eachother and u feel like family with many people. there is no anonymity and everything u do gets heard of quickly.

dont feel alone in this. you are not. it might be hard when u know people around u dont accept homosexuals but u shouldnt care what they think. think of it this way: if they knew what would change in ur life? would they not let u into bars? would they stop talking to u? whatever it is, it cant be that bad. plus, when the people who REALLY love you realise that u havent changed but u are the same charming person u have always been they will love u again.

please dont take medication. those things are addictive and can hurt u in the long run more than they help u in the short run. u can meet other bis and gays in ur area via the internet. thats the beauty of it!