Hey I am 15 years old and about a year ago me my best friend and our two families went on holiday together, me and my friend shared a room and gradually we began touching each other. We have done it a few other times afterwards, we never talk about it and I sometimes look forward to seeing him and doing it again but I am not attracted to him and I don't enjoy it as much as I think I will when we actually do it, I mostly let him touch me. Afterwards I feel really sickened with myself. I think I still find girls attractive and I wonder whether I am actually gay. I worry about it all the time.

Also I have fancied girls before but i have always never known how to ask them out etc, I have never had a girlfriend and I have never felt attracted to a guy, Please help.