My school's library. I'm a gay closeted teen and I know the librarian, but I caught a peek at this book "Our Sexuality" and I REALLY want to read it since it's like a 500 page thing on EVERYTHING about gays. But I know the librarian and I don't think I can possibly rent it out. It could expose my sexuality, something which I can't bear at this moment. Do you guys think I can find it somewhere else? It looks REALLY old and I'm not sure if they make it anymore. What would you guys do?
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I can't buy books off the internet. Only 15 and I can't use my parents credit cards.