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...she noticed he was different ? well.. I live in mexico.. in this magazine.. there is a story about a mother who has a gay son.. and his son,, since he was a child.. he preferred to play with dolls.. and he came out with her until he was 21, but she always have doubts about his sexuality, because he never spoke about girls or stuff like that, he was quiet about that topic, she noticed he was something effeminate, it was hard for her but now she said.. she accepts her son and love so much.. she can scream.. I have a gay son and I am proud of it.. my question is as a gay do we have something effeminate in us as gay males? always? I am something effeminate, males always rejected me for being something with mannerims.. but I never played with dolls or stuff like that or like the pink rose.. I am lonely, and the few gays I knew personally were effeminate in some levels.. they try to hide.. and they always played to be a woman in some meeting, but I am not sure.. if there are totally masculine gays.. being gay is an orientantion but as well is an action or behavior? naturally?
my case is something similar but my mom never paid attention to me in that way.. but some of her friends told her.. if I had a gay son.. I would love so much that.. so she started to think too much in that the last year.. I came out with her.. but she still feeling bad even we have one year to be honest.. I still scared of her.. I am 21 but in mexico meanwhile you live with your parents you have to obey them..