guys,

soon when I realized that I act and look like gay and have a fragile body I started hating myself. I had slept with few guys in past but not wanting to.. I like girls to and have slept with a girl as well.. but I am always worried when someone calls me gay or so.. as my sleeping with men is hidden... and i have stopped doing it from past 2 year.. I don't wanna hurt my wife by doing wrong things... I wanna be a good husband... whenever I go to social environment I start crying badly soon after that.. I am always worried if i have acted gay or did i speak to girls more than guys.. this has become my psychology... I hate it so much... help me guys!! I cant tolerate these thoughts.. at times I masturbate and look at myself if i acted gay.. i am worried al time...