i hate myself. I am not against gay people neither am i homophobic, but to tell you the truth i hate the fact that i get erections when looking at gay porn, or penises, or hott male bodies, I hate it. I am in love with a girl, who doesn't love me back, but we are friends. However, i constantly have urges to look at gay porn, even though everytime after it, i tell myself that i dont want to do that anymore, but i can't help it. Also, i dont have sexual feelings for girls and am 15. I am still going through puberty, all that is left is for my voice to deepen. I hate myself. how can i get rid of my urge to be gay, or something of the sorts?

okay then how do i get straigh feelings?