Thread: curious sexuality or love?

I already wrote this under the singles and dating section and no one answered me... so this section seems a little more active lol

So I am in a completely idiotic situation. I have known a girl for about 3 or 4 years but I never really talked to her at all. She went to the same high school as me and is a year younger than I am. I had a little crush on her my sophomore year but in my junior and senior year I have completely fallen in love with her and I know it sounds ridiculous because I have hardly ever spoken a word to her but I wouldn’t know how else to describe these intense feelings I have had for her. In my senior year we had a class together and sometimes I would catch her staring at me and look away right when I looked at her. I knew this wasn’t enough to actually tell if she was interested in me or not so I said nothing.

The main problem I am having with all of this is I am in college now and I cannot seemed to get over her… it is like I am borderline obsessed! I will start to like someone for like a week and then something will remind me of her… something as simple as the color blue!(her eye color) Another thing I dread everyday are those stupid what ifs, like what if I would of said something or what if I just made one sign of a clue that I was interested. I just regret being such a coward sometimes.

My question is… what should I do? I am trying so hard to get over her but I have been trying for a year now and nothing works. It is to the point where sometimes my heart is in actual pain when I think of her! BTW, I am a girl haha I am not sure it matters… I wouldn’t consider myself a lesbian I would just say I am open to anything. I have had boyfriends in the past and girl crushes but never a girlfriend.

So if anyone could help me with any advice I would absolutely appreciate. I am becoming so desperate and pathetic , I am so confused.

I agree with Stoner Girl. One of the big pluses for you is the fact that you are now in college. If after telling her you've had a crush on her she doesn't take the news well, you at least aren't around or the high school backlash. It isn't much, but it is something.